Thursday 3 May 2007

Feeling sorry for myself!


Life has been a challenge since I lost my mum at Christmas.
Everything has gone wrong and after the tooth incident and the spots, I have not felt like doing anything especially getting out my computer and blogging.

Not wanting to dwell on all the negative stuff, the main positive thing that I have started to do is to go running two or three times a week with a friend. It is fabulous and we have both felt the benefits. I highly recommend it to anyone that is feeling down, as a powerful therapy!
Focusing on oneself and realising that the health of your mind, body and soul lies with yourself is an enlightening thought.
Self-preservation lies on each and everyone’s own doorstep.

Ultimately, we are responsible for our own destiny.

I have tried to take responsibility for my own actions and destiny for a while, not blaming outside influences for the reasons I am where I am today.
Becoming overwhelmed with the enormity of everything that has gone on in my life since before Christmas, I decided it was ok to feel sorry for myself.

Within my own self pity I felt alone and angry at everything.

Consequently the reasons for the festering pustule abscess and the outbreak of spots.
I even had a rotten oil filter on my car, and wondered why I was losing so much oil.
Louis hay of ‘How to heal your life’, would say it was all to do with suppressed anger. I agree!

I went into Childline last weekend, feeling sorry for myself and not really wanting to do any counselling so I listened in.
The conversation with a 14year old was so awful, that my problems paled into insignificance.

I completed my transformation after having a fantastic reading by a man called Fred from Bolton. I have to say that he was so accurate and I was overwhelmed when he brought my mum through.
For all my beliefs it was and is hard to accept that, she is no longer here in body. I do miss her terribly but feel her presence around me giving me strength to carry on.

I feel more optimistic and however awful the circumstances, there is always a light waiting for you to find in your darkness!
Life has been a challenge since I lost my mum at Christmas.
Everything has gone wrong and after the tooth incident and the spots, I have not felt like doing anything especially getting out my computer and blogging.

Not wanting to dwell on all the negative stuff, the main positive thing that I have started to do is to go running two or three times a week with a friend. It is fabulous and we have both felt the benefits. I highly recommend it to anyone that is feeling down, as a powerful therapy!
Focusing on oneself and realising that the health of your mind, body and soul lies with yourself is an enlightening thought.
Self-preservation lies on each and everyone’s own doorstep.

Ultimately, we are responsible for our own destiny.

I have tried to take responsibility for my own actions and destiny for a while, not blaming outside influences for the reasons I am where I am today.
Becoming overwhelmed with the enormity of everything that has gone on in my life since before Christmas, I decided it was ok to feel sorry for myself.

Within my own self pity I felt alone and angry at everything.

Consequently the reasons for the festering pustule abscess and the outbreak of spots.
I even had a rotten oil filter on my car, and wondered why I was losing so much oil.
Louis hay of ‘How to heal your life’, would say it was all to do with suppressed anger. I agree!

I went into Childline last weekend, feeling sorry for myself and not really wanting to do any counselling so I listened in.
The conversation with a 14year old was so awful, that my problems paled into insignificance.

I completed my transformation after having a fantastic reading by a man called Fred from Bolton. I have to say that he was so accurate and I was overwhelmed when he brought my mum through.
For all my beliefs it was and is hard to accept that, she is no longer here in body. I do miss her terribly but feel her presence around me giving me strength to carry on.

I feel more optimistic and however awful the circumstances, there is always a light waiting for you to find in your darkness!